Mar 11 2009
So i know i haven’t blogged in a while.
im’ still trying to figure out how to make this a
productive and useful blog. however i was scared that if i didn’t write anythnig for too long that i’d loose the blog and i don’t want it shut down, at leasr not yet.
Anyway so people have been telling me that i loo great having lost over 20 lbs, and i really do enjoy hearing it. However i don’t know how to take the congratulations. i’ve been chub for so long it’s just odd to all of a sudden hear. Also, it’s always said in front of my BFF, who is on the weightloss treck with me and i feel guilty.
She’s been helping me through the whole thing. if it wasn’t fo her walking and/ or going to the gym with me i definitely wouldn’t be here and (even though she is beautiful and never needed the weightloss the way i did) she hasn’t lost as much as i did. Anyway so i feel like everytime someone congratulates me it’s thrown in her face and i feel guilty.
She still looks better than i do so i shouldn’t feel bad but i do. if anyone reads this, is there any way ro kil my guilt?
